i’m lost daw.. hehe!
there’s been a lot of things going on lately. the other week, a relative died of cancer. i, mama and ria made it to the last night of wake. she’s ate rowena, an old maiden who was diagnosed with breast cancer. we were shocked to hear the news of her death, because we all knew she had recovered after a year of regular chemotherapy. but knowing the nature of any cancer illness, if it strikes you your one-foot is already in the grave. people even tag cancer as a traitor desease. if only we can choose which cause of death we prefer, i will definitely choose a sudden death rather than suffer the complications of a cancer desease. but to no avail, we don’t have that luxury of choise, unless you’re a suicidal type of person. hehe!
christmas is fast approaching. i realized i already lost count of my mga inaanak (now i’ve justified the title “i’m lost”.. i told you!) yes honestly, i already forgot the number. one thing i am sure is it’s more than a dozen because two years ago, i remember i bought 10 gifts for them. i attended couple of binyagan last year and this year as well. anyway, mama never forgets that, i’ll just give her cash and she knows what to buy for them (and who these kids are… hehe!)
during this season, people are fond of making their “wish list”, did i ever had that list? i guess no. never in my entire life. i grew up with a very poor family where gifts on christmas is not a deal. i can only recall mama reminding us to hang a plastic bag on christmas eves (instead of socks). and when we wake up the following day we’ll find out it already contains candies and junk foods. yeah, we never knew that santa claus doesn’t really exist until we’re grown ups and lost interest on candies and junk foods. i will always thank mama for such a wonderful memory.
so what are the big deals of the season, now that i’m older? a lot.. literally lots of christmas parties. on the 14th, we have the so-called “night with the president”, it’s a formal party for the management group of the company. and i only have couple of days left to look for a perfect suit for that night. yes i want a perfect suit, because i want to look just great during our samba dance number (whoa! samba!).
on the 21st is our company’s christmas party. everyone will attend, from the agents, management and support groups. well i wish to win in the raffle. i didn’t get any last year so i can feel getting a microwave oven or a laptop this year.. hehehe! how i wish… (don’t think it’s a wish list.. hehe!)
on that same day, 21st, i am attending rixa’s christening. ninong na naman ako… huhuhu! rixa is migs’ niece. migs would always tease me whenever i’m in their house, he’d always blurt out i’d give rixa a 5k worth gift.. (anong akala mo sakin, pulitiko?? hmpf!)
i also heard jun-jun mentions shane’s christening on dec. 21. i wish it’s not the final date. i can’t imagine attending 2 binyagans and a xmas party all in one day.
migs is celebrating his birthday on the 27th. 26 pa lang ng gabi, doon na daw ako sa kanila matulog, pupunta kaming ocean park sa 27. andaming pera huh! 10k for entrance fees alone. kasama kasi buong family and relatives, sumabit pa ako.. hehe!
buti na lang natalo ako ni migs sa pustahan sa pacquiao-dela hoya match. ung t-shirt na pustahan namin, un na ang xmas at bday gift ko sa kanya. hehehe!
andami kong nasabi pero di ko pa rin nadisclose kung baket ako lost. hehe!
ang hirap kasi. minsan kahit sobrang clear ng nararamdaman mo, ang hirap-hirap iexplain.
kung mababasa mo man ito, here’s the message of my silence:
I don’t know what it is about you
but you’re always on my mind
I don’t know if you feel the same way I do
cos we’re running out of time
I just need you to know
there’s a memory I hold
and I wanted to share it with you…
i love you so much…
